Hey guys

I felt like writing a journal entry, so I did.
prepare for random rambling, cause I'll write whatever comes to my mind..

I'm of course supposed to be sleeping right now, so the time to write this is perfect.
I have been getting all sorts of journal entries lately, people on Deviantart seem or utterly depressed, or over-the-rainbow happy, judging from their journals
But I guess that's only normal, people like to rant after all I do too, although I have never made a rant in one of my journals before as far as I know >.<

It seems that while you get older, you have almost no time at all to do anything you like, drawing, writing, photographing, painting, chatting with friends.
And school takes a lot out of you, especially if you're a lazy bum like me
I often find myself sleeping on the couch after a long school day >.< (but I'm in my finals, so the teachers are practically throwing homework at your head warning you to get it done )
Know how a regular day looks like for me?

- I get out of bed and smash the alarm clock before the damn thing awakens everyone in the house.
- getting ready for school, almost too late (every time )
- first and second period "still half asleep" classmates talking about whatever.
- third, fourth, fifth and sixth period... "trying to work" classmates throw whatever they have in their hands through the classroom, paper, erasers, pencils, bread, strawberries... >.<
- seventh and eight period.. "having all great idea's for new drawings, drawing in school books" classmates are utterly bored and start pissing off random people.
- ninth and tenth period (the last ones..) "concentration's gone, writing stories in my math notebook" classmates are half asleep and barely paying attention.
- everyone runs out of school, I get my bike, ride home.
- fall asleep on the couch, then try doing some homework while drawing little pictures between the sentences.
- dinner.. then I stampede up to my room, kick my little brother out (can always find him on my computer )
- write down stories, and draw (or at least try since I mostly have no energy left ) read fanfictions, check DA, etc.. (I rarely sleep before 2:00 in the morning)

well, that was a school day, a tiresome long one

Boring school days tear at your concentration abilities >.< and probably I should go to bed sooner too
The time difference between my country and the US is at least 6 hours, so my DA friends are online at hellish times for me

But lately I've been restless really listening to other people's problems and worries really isn't healthy for ya
Unfortunately I'm that kind of person that holds all of her worries and troubles in, I don't like to trouble others with what's on my mind.
That's because of something rather dark that I'm not gonna talk about

Really people, if you keep on trying to help others with their problems, that takes a lot out of you, and in most cases you'll be thanked by them, Now, that feels good for a while.
But you can't keep on giving like that, if you take all those problems on, along with your own, the stressing will definitely take the better of you.

I don't know what to do with myself anymore I don't feel like I can talk to someone about what's troubling me, I don't even know what's troubling me anymore myself!
All that I know is that I'm restless, maybe it's just part of growing up

Of course I'm still trying to get the drawings I'm busy with up, along with the first chapter of a story >.<
Might as well get some rest now too I've been rambling too long

Ok then! Keep up the good work you guys, and take care

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